The Mother Meltdown.
Monster Squad Mum – Thrives on a challenge, is always organised, loves to keep a tidy and functional house, is creative and enjoys expressing it through arts and crafts.
She is patient, caring and well mannered (most of the time), she loves spending time reading and writing with the school kids and building a fun environment for the littlies! She is proud of her squad and would go back for more….and more…. and more…..
Sounds promising doesn’t it? But what happens when Monster Squad Mum has a meltdown???
I was asked this question by a wonderful and highly respected lady early last week and it has been ringing in my ears ever since.
Is the meltdown on it’s way? What will happen during this meltdown? Will my family survive a mother meltdown? How can I stop this suspected meltdown from happening? ARGHHHHHH It’s a lot to take in on an already crowded mind.
What if this dear lady is right?I mean it is always easier to see things when you are on the outside looking in, isn’t it?
Lately I haven’t really been myself. I’m starting to worry.
I am tired. It’s safe to say I’m beyond tired, more like exhausted.
I’m rundown – some kind of cold/flu has taken hold.
My patience level has dropped and I am ‘fed-up’ on a regular basis.
The more I think about it, the more I am starting to believe the MOTHER MELTDOWN is going to hit me…..
Monster Squad Mum TODAY – Was disheartened by the challenge of cleaning out all the office stuff from Aria’s bedroom, and was feeling very lost in the chaos that is her unorganised house. She wished the world would go away so she could crotchet that beanie she’s been on about but instead she washed the dishes.
She lost her cool with Veruca on several occasions, ranted about not giving a damn and dropped a few ‘F’ words here and there. This morning she avoided reading in the classroom and just resented the fact that all her hard work over the last few days was destroyed by mid-day as the Veruca/Levi tornado swept through the house.
Hmmmm It’s not looking too good, is it?
Bless my family I love them more than life itself, but surely I am not the only mother in the universe feeling a little under the weather and trapped by the daily grind of life between the same (rundown – needs replastering & painting) 4 walls?
I am certain this information was not in the baby making brochure….
We as mothers are forced to put on a brave face day in and day out no matter how we really feel on the inside. We carry many a burden around on our shoulders that no one need know about and are forever taking a “Just get on with it” type stand.
If we are ever brave enough to make our weaknesses public we are accused of whinging and moaning, we are looked down upon as though our right to motherhood should be taken away, and as one kind person once suggested to me “Suck it up princess – It’s the life you chose”.
Yes people, I did choose to have a big family. Every one of them. That’s right, no ‘accidents’ in our house. I also chose to have them close together and in my 20’s rather than 30’s. All decisions that I (and the hubby) consciously made, because we wanted a big family.
What I DID NOT choose is the added stress that life has thrown at us in the last 5 or 6 years. (Enough there to fill several other blog posts in the future!). Till now I have delt with it like a regular little trooper.
But the stress and upset is taking it’s toll, it’s swallowing me whole.
I am certain it’s time to confront all these stresses no matter how hard that may be before I become victim to the Mother Meltdown of 2011.
So walk with me (errrr read with me) as I prepare to restore the old Monster Squad Mum once more….
Monster Squad Mum TOMORROW – Will get out of bed knowing that the day will be busy with the usual tasks but she will also make a little time for herself (afterall, it will be her birthday). She will focus her pent up anger on the pavement (weather permitting) and go for a walk to help clear her mind and make a start on reducing her ‘Bloggers Butt’.
She may begin to delegate tasks out to others so she can avoid another string of late nights and maybe at some point even grab some regular time out for herself. Lastly, she will hold her hubby and her kids in her arms, cuddle them tight and tell them she loves them with all of her heart.
If you’re nodding your head and this post strikes a chord in your heart please feel free to comment as I’d love to know how you’re dealing with things to avoid the dreaded meltdown. We may all be able to help support each other 🙂