Last night I sat here on the computer refreshing my Common Chaos Chronicle Facebook page every now and then when a status popped up before my eyes that could have possibly changed my life forever. I read a little something like this:
“I am starting a new weighloss journey and tomorrow’s post I am putting a full photo of me up, no more hiding…..I am slightly ‘scared’?? :|” It was written by Katrina, The Organised Housewife.
It instantly struck a chord with me as she had in one simple sentence hit the nail on the head. I am petrified of what people will say if they see me. I am constantly filled with thoughts of other peoples thoughts, imagining what horrible things they must be thinking. It has gotten to a point where I even avoid doing the grocery shopping, because I don’t want people to see me.
It not only affects my physical health, but it has plagued my emotional and mental well-being my whole life.
It’s time and I am ready. This time I wont fail because I mean it. It’s not empty words just to keep the naggers quiet. I am frightened. There is history of diabetes, stroke and cancer in my family. I fear that if something doesn’t change, I wont be here for the massive family I so dearly love.
So here is my plan….
I am going to walk at least 5 times a week.
I am going to use the Wii Fit I paid a fortune for and never use…
I am going to drink as much water as I can…. I really struggle with this one in winter.
I am going to cook with low fat ingredients where possible and watch my portion sizes.
I am going to buy a pedometer (hopefully tomorrow).
I am keeping a food diary to record exactly what I do consume each day….. eeeek!
and last but not least,
I am going to stay positive about this.
I am not silly enough to think that this could all happen overnight. I plan on taking baby steps, gradually changing habits and creating new healthier ones. I know that if I delete everything YUM out of my life I will binge….
Tuesday nights is our ‘MonsterSquad Movie Night’, in which we normally order pizza and watch a movie. Tonight I opted to make our own mini pizzas using Pita bread, fresh ingredients and low fat cheese.
OMG, they were delicious. The kids ate every last bit, and I know that it was such a better option.
I wont amaze you with numbers, I am far too embarrassed about that, but what I will do is check in each week and let you know how I have gone, if I have had a loss or a gain etc….
I will keep my goals simple to begin with.
On July 30th I am headed down to Melbourne to the Blogopolis Conference, where I will meet many of the bloggers I so very much admire. I am feeling very self conscious about the whole situation,and would really love to buy a new outfit to wear for the day.
So here it is. If I can lose 5kgs in the next 3 weeks, I will purchase something new to wear. 🙂 (Wait till the hubby reads that!)
If I lose 10kgs before then (Wouldn’t that be awesome?) I shall buy a new handbag to go with the outfit!!! Nothing like an added incentive is there???
I am going to need all the support I can get. It’s going to be tough in this crazy busy lifestyle we live in, but here’s to hoping determination gets me through!
Id like to say a great big thanks to everyone that has already pledged their support!