Welcome to My Weight-Loss Journey.
It’s week 14 and things have been average around here lately.
* Long string of illness through the whole family
* Lack of money to buy separate meals
* A heap of Take-Away junk when we were too sick to cook
* The school holidays
* No motivation and/or spare time for myself
* Social outings and so on….
Worst case scenario is that I completely undo all my hard work and effort that I have put in to losing the 12.8kgs I have already shed.
Best case? I don’t.
At this stage I am still very much committed to this journey of mine, as I creep slowly towards yet another little milestone on my list. I may not be losing massive numbers, I may have had a few shitty weeks, but I am still here plodding away. Like I said in the beginning, this is a life change for me.
We would all love to wake up slim in the morning, but it just doesn’t happen overnight. I have been open and honest with you all along this whole path and I plan on keeping it that way.
It’s not an easy thing to throw your goals and plans out there for the world to read. Especially when it’s the biggest sore point of your life.
But I have done so for 2 reasons.
1. I need your support. I need the motivation and I love that everyone shares their own stories and ideas.
2. I want ordinary people just like myself to see that it can be done.
What I would like to have a rant about this week though, is a negative comment I received 2nd hand during the last week or so.
Now I am one that is quite accustomed to negativity and being looked down upon. I have had it my whole life. I can brush off nasty comments like an old hand, but this time I want to make a point of how much damage one bad comment can do.
What I heard was someone whom I believed to be a friend has been sprouting around that I probably haven’t lost any weight at all because I look exactly the same as when I started.
On the inside, I am gutted. Gutted that someone whom I thought would be happy for me, would say those words.
To put it politely… (well not really politely) I have busted my balls to lose the 12.8kgs I have dropped so far.
I have overcome many obstacles, taken steps backwards, jumped forwards, noted my mistakes, highlighted my successes and I am extremely proud of what I have achieved.
The damage it could have done?
In the past, one simple comment like this would have made me ‘give up’. I would have quit trying and simply declared the world must have meant for me to be a fat person. Why? Because the comments hurt too much.
I speak from a lifetime of roller coaster diets in desperate attempts to be thin…
NOT THIS TIME.
I may have only shed 12.8kgs, but it has given me a little confidence boost already. I am not hiding anymore.
This time, I know the comment is not a direct reflection of who I am or what I look like. I know my appearance is changing.
People whom have no idea that I am even ‘losing weight’ have noted the difference in how I am looking.
I know in myself that clothes are beginning to fit better. There are less bulges here and there.
So why would someone say something so hurtful and negative?
Perhaps they are jealous? Perhaps they are not doing so well themselves?
I don’t know why they said it, and I hope that if they are reading this they might have a rethink next time they sprout their mouth off at someone who is doing their best.
I have lots of weight to lose. In fact it’s safe to say I need to shed half my body weight plus a little more. 12.8kgs is only a tiny fraction of the whole number. Picture it….
Imagine if someone that weighed in at 60kgs lost 12.8kgs. There would be a massive difference in their appearance as it would be a much higher percentage of their total weight. Now imagine me. Much much bigger than 60kgs…. 12.8kgs is a much smaller percentage of my total weight.
So realistically I am not expecting to become a supermodel material overnight…LOL
Makes perfect sense to me.
I guess what I am trying to say is that a fleeting comment, some juvenile, not thought out statement can really destroy a person’s self esteem, motivation and enthusiasm to succeed. It can do much more damage than you think.
I am all for constructive criticism, but negativity is not welcome around me anymore. If you have nothing pleasant to say, then say nothing at all….
This week I lost 100grams.
That means I have not undone any of my hard work. YAY!!!
I think my weight-loss has actually plateaued so I am looking for some new inspiration to kick start it again.