Today is going to be one of ‘those’ days.
I’m feeling so flat, so ‘meh’, so unimpressed with life and what it has to offer.
The kids are all happy and busy playing. Well with the occasional outburst but hey, that’s just kids.
Hubby is doing his ‘thing’ (whatever that is….) and then there is me, surrounded by the chaos school holidays have brought upon Chaos HQ.
Everywhere I look there is yet another 100 things I should be doing.
Christmas needs to be packed away.
Toys need to be culled and sorted.
Washing….. Don’t get me started on the washing.
The bathroom is dirty and needs a clean, the kitchen floor looks like it’s never had a mop over it and the ants are still walking away with masses of sugar the kids have left around in lolly form.
I keep thinking about a conversation I had with a friend last night, and one the other day too.
These lovely ladies know me. They sense when things aren’t right, they know what to say and they’re not afraid to say it.
We all need more friends like these girls.
Right now, I feel as though I am stuck in limbo, and I can’t get out.
What I want for my life and what I have, are 2 different things and I cannot work out how to smoosh them together to make myself even a little happy.
And I am sure we’ve all felt this way at some point in our lives.
I am not a big risk taker.
I fear the unknown and worry far too much about the ‘What if’s’.
What if happiness is on the other side of several massive risks that I am too afraid to take?
Will I regret it forever?
I don’t have the answers and I’m not sure anyone does.
That’s life…. I guess.
Do you ever get yourself so caught up and lost in your thoughts that you end up more confused than you were in the first place?