What Makes Me Tick...

Flat as a tack…….

Wednesday, 9th January 2013

Flat as a tack…….

Today is going to be one of ‘those’ days.

I’m feeling so flat, so ‘meh’, so unimpressed with life and what it has to offer.

The kids are all happy and busy playing. Well with the occasional outburst but hey, that’s just kids.

Hubby is doing his ‘thing’ (whatever that is….) and then there is me, surrounded by the chaos school holidays have brought upon Chaos HQ.

Everywhere I look there is yet another 100 things I should be doing.

Christmas needs to be packed away.

Toys need to be culled and sorted.

Washing….. Don’t get me started on the washing.

The bathroom is dirty and needs a clean, the kitchen floor looks like it’s never had a mop over it and the ants are still walking away with masses of sugar the kids have left around in lolly form.

I keep thinking about a conversation I had with a friend last night, and one the other day too.

These lovely ladies know me. They sense when things aren’t right, they know what to say and they’re not afraid to say it.

We all need more friends like these girls.

Right now, I feel as though I am stuck in limbo, and I can’t get out.

What I want for my life and what I have, are 2 different things and I cannot work out how to smoosh them together to make myself even a little happy.

And I am sure we’ve all felt this way at some point in our lives.

I am not a big risk taker.

I fear the unknown and worry far too much about the ‘What if’s’.

What if happiness is on the other side of several massive risks that I am too afraid to take?

Will I regret it forever?

I don’t have the answers and I’m not sure anyone does.

That’s life…. I guess.

Do you ever get yourself so caught up and lost in your thoughts that you end up more confused than you were in the first place?

 

 

 


signature


    Written by:



    3 comments
    1. Yeah sometimes I do. It's normal I guess, especially when we have so much going on in our lives. We tend to want to do everything that we do everything half arsed. Am I right? It's normal Jac. You're normal. :) xx

    2. Rachel T

      I felt this exact same way only a few months ago. And one day, it was like someone flicked a switch and things started happening. It all seemed to work together, and slowly day by day it feels like every day is happier than the last. Hold on, some day soon your switch will flick, I promise!

    3. Someone gave me really good advice when I was suffering anxiety and depression and that was just make a decision and go with it. I was spending so much energy on agonising decisions that it was stopping me from living life. This was the crux of my recovery and now I weigh up options and then just dive in and try not to look back. In regards to all the stuff that needs doing. I always ask whether that stuff is important, or can I stretch out the cleaning without causing more work in the long run or can I delegate some jobs. Goodluck with you decisions x

    Leave a comment

    Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

    CommentLuv badge