I am finding myself getting closer and closer each day, to packing a bag and walking away.
I’m tired. Really really tired.
I’m tired of having little to no sleep. I feel like I’m drunk 24/7 and I rarely ever drink! I cannot concentrate, I’m drowsy and I have no patience left what so ever.
‘A’ good night’s sleep won’t cut it. It’s going to take a whole lot more than one night of sleep to repair the damage the last 10 years of sleep deprivation has had on me.
I’m tired of the same mundane repetitive crap day in and day out. I love being a wife and a parent, but I also want to be me too. I’d love to be able to whip through the jobs for each day then enjoy some time to get new things done.
I need some down time, and at the moment despite countless attempts at creating a much easier life for us here at Chaos HQ, everyone just keeps working against me.
I’m tired of the whole ‘it’s OK, Mum will do it’ attitude. It’s not OK, Mum can’t do everything all of the time.
Seems everyone else gets time to just switch off.
I have a bad head cold, that is moving to my chest. For day’s now I have ‘soldiered on’ hoping to kick it before it sets in and turns into bronchitis. But realistically, I probably need some rest.
The thing is, when I stop here at Chaos HQ, everyone else stops too, and absolutely nothing gets done at all.
Nobody ever steps up to the plate and when nothing gets done at all, it means an overwhelming, massive job for me to do once I’m feeling better, and really, there’s just not enough hours in the day….
I want a family that can see and notice when I’m unwell and struggling. A family that ‘want’s’ to look after their wife and mum when she’s not 100%.
Instead I have a family that doesn’t bat an eyelid. Which is the most very frustrating thing of all.
I know I’m not alone and I know so many stay at home parents that feel exactly the same way as I do.
Some choose to voice their opinions and vent their frustrations and others just curl up on the couch and say nothing at all.
Either way, we’re all still in the same boat.
Seriously, WHO LOOKS AFTER THE MUM???
So I’m giving this family of mine one last chance before they find out the hard way what it’s like when Mum actually quits, curls up and lets the chaos happen around her…..
What would be really nice though is a holiday away from the lot of them.
There’s nothing like losing what you’ve got to realise the worth of what you had.
All those in favor of a free, always open, always available, all inclusive ‘MUM RETREAT’ raise your hand now……